08/14/21 - (READ CRYPTED TEXT FOR MORE CONTEXT ABOUT THIS)
Okay, I've thought about this for a while now and I've decided what I'll do from now on with my channel. I won't exactly stop uploading but I won't force myself to upload either. I'll basically be uploading what I want, when I want. It was probably like this before I made this statement but I wanted to say it so anyone (if there's still anyone here) wouldn't get confused. So, if I don't upload for a few months, then don't worry I'm not in need of DIRE HELP or anything, just living my life. I originally wanted to stop making YouTube videos altogether, but I realized that there may be some things I want to put onto the internet. So, I'll still be making YouTube videos, but they won't be posted on a schedule or anything like that, just when I want to make a video. If anyone's still watching my videos, even though it's very low quality content, then thank you. I've been doing YouTube for about 8 years now (more so 5 since I posted my first video in 2016 but whatever) and my first experience with being somewhat famous was when I posted a very bad setup-like video called "How to setup a PS3 to a Samsung T.V" in 2017. That video has around 26,000 views. Of course, that isn't a LOT of views, but it was a lot for someone who had around 40 subscribers at the time. I don't think I'll experience that kind of fame ever again, but to be honest, the thing that ultimately killed my channel was me "quitting" YouTube in 2019 to focus more on school. I'm not saying that was a bad reason to quit uploading, but I think I could've kept some of my audience if I just kept uploading short, dumb videos like I always did. But, I get extremely burnt out on things very quickly and I can't keep doing this forever since I need to focus more on school as I cannot make somewhat high quality videos and have good grades in school at the same time. I know others can do just that, but I am not them. I have different capabilities and that comes first when I have a choice of doing YouTube my whole life and getting nowhere with it, or making an attempt to do something more productive for the world. My channel is pretty much dead now, I'll still post videos here and there, but don't expect much from me. I would really recommend you go and check out my friend's channel if you're into trains/railfanning. Even if you're not, still go check it out. He actually posts videos freqently and just is a cool person. Also, if the person I just mentioned is reading this, then this message is for you. You've been a great friend to me these past few years. I know we haven't been talking to each other a lot recently, but to be honest that's more of my fault as I've developed a sort of social anxiety as of a year or two ago. You've been the only friend that's stuck with me since before September of 2018 and I want to thank you so much for just talking with me, even if it's been weeks, months, or years since we've last spoken. I might not be as active as I was a few years ago, but I want you to know that you've been amazing as a friend and as a person. This is all I have to say for this essay. Thank you everyone for being with me for these 8 (again it's more so 5 YEARS!!!!!!) years!